I'm poor but I'm kind,
I'm short but I'm healthy,
I'm high but I'm grounded,
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed,
I'm lost but I'm hopeful,
I feel drunk but I'm sober, I care but I'm restless, I'm here but I'm really gone.
I'm wrong and I'm sorry.
I'm free but I'm focused,
I'm hard but I'm friendly,
I'm sad but I'm laughing,
I'm brave but I'm chicken shit,
I'm sick but I'm pretty ;).
Rej. 22. Manila.
Everything's gonna be fine.
Dear Camz, I’m so sorry you’ve had to sing “I can’t have you the way that I want” over and over and over. I really am.
What the serious fuck, I thought the highest possible GPA one could get in the States is a 4.0? How the hell does someone go even higher than the highest?!
All of a sudden this thought led to these thoughts, as follows:
If I were right around their age and had the chance to meet Lauren and the opportunity to be her friend, it could go one of two ways:
1) I would be the ‘there but not quite’ type of friend, who she could talk to or would stick by her whenever she needed someone, but otherwise I would purposefully distance myself. I don’t know if it’s because of my nature, but I’d be like, “Oh hey you’re inhumanly intelligent, you’re inhumanly beautiful, you’re athletic, you’re popular, you’re a good daughter, you love hard, and you’re not only a freakishly talented musician BUT ALSO a writer—in short you are MUCH TOO PERFECT for me to handle. You constantly overwhelm me and I simply cannot take it.” Because if I did for some reason decide NOT to keep my distance,
2) I would fall helplessly, hopelessly, utterly DEVASTATINGLY in love with her. Like someone we all know very well, who we should probably keep hidden under the very secretive initials KCC, who, if so is the case, I feel incredibly sorry for, I can only imagine.
Dinah, Ally and Mani don’t appear to be under option 1 because they’re obviously sisters to Lauren and not anything like me (I’m a nut case), so, kudos to them for that! :>